The folder
I was looking at our family photos on his laptop with teary eyes when I found a folder containing extreme hardcore bondage sex pictures and videos. This surprised me especially because my husband was particularly boring in bed and dismissed every idea I had when I tried to bring some excitement into our married life.
The inheritance
I learned from the lawyer that neither I nor our two children were mentioned in the will. The sole beneficiary was his mistress, who also had two children. She inherited all the movable property and the life insurance payout. We had to move out of the house since my husband had bought it before our marriage, and a long and bitter legal battle began with the other family, which still continues today.
The new beginning
My husband's family expressed their disapproval when I started dating again five years after his death. Five years of mourning was not enough for them; my mother-in-law said this showed that I never loved her son.
The amounts
My husband's death completely shattered me. We had been together for 25 years, and I didn't know how I would live without him. Then I looked into his bank accounts and found out he spent substantial amounts daily on live sex cam shows and sponsored several webcam "models" separately. This was not only a huge blow because I felt betrayed, but also because we were in a difficult financial situation, and I worked two jobs to avoid going into the red after paying bills. Meanwhile, he was spending money on online sex.
The family
My husband died young during surgery. I had been sleeping in the hospital for two days and went home dazed, with tear-streaked eyes. At first, I thought I couldn't open the door because of sleep deprivation and my trembling hand, but the key wouldn't even go into the lock. I heard noises, so I looked through the window. My husband's mother, siblings, and brothers-in-law were in the house, packing our belongings into boxes. When I asked them what they were doing, they said these were bought by my husband, so they belonged to them and told me to get lost.
Interrupted mourning
My heart was broken at my husband's death. He was 48, I was 42, and I thought we would grow old together. Then I found messages on his phone that clearly showed he cheated. Not just with one, but with several women, for years. After that, I didn't know how to mourn someone I loved with all my heart but who hurt me like this after his death.
Bitter realization
I always gave my salary to my husband; he managed our finances, and we had everything. After his death, it turned out he was an online gambling addict, and for one and a half years, we lived on loans and credits. The grief was replaced by uncontrollable anger, which I still feel towards him for leaving me and the children in such a terrible situation.
The diary
After his death, I packed his clothes with a heavy heart when I found his diary. From it, I learned that he never loved me, but felt "unrestrained sexual desire" for both my sisters.
The discovery
He always said I was crazy for being jealous of his ex-fiancée, then after his death, I found a dozen naked photos of the woman on his phone. None were old; the last was taken the week before his death.
The mistress
The first shock was my husband's death. The second was finding out he had a mistress for years. The third was when I learned the mistress was pregnant, and just when I thought it couldn't get worse, the mistress started demanding. She wanted not only money but also my husband's personal belongings. She sent a message through her lawyer demanding I send her my husband's clothes, shoes, watches, toothbrush, comb, and other personal items, including the wedding ring. According to her, she needed these so the child could "establish a connection with the father he never had the chance to meet."
